I have been extremely out of it the past couple of days.
I've taken to staying up all night (not for lack of trying) and then sleeping all day. Even if I do wake up before noon I just stay in my room until hunger or work forces me out.
I don't know why.
I just have zero motivation right now and that sucks for so many reason, the most important being that I should be exploring this strange country I put myself in.
I think I just feel a little out of place and that makes me anxious.
Up until about two weeks before I moved to Taiwan I had two jobs and I was in my last semester of college. I'm sure you can imagine this kept me busy.
Now, I only have to do something for about four or five hours a day (except Saturdays). This — not moving — has been the difficult transition for me.
I almost feel useless.
I think I just need to grow some nerve and just go and do things. I'm still too shy to try to have a conversation with complete strangers, although I feel like that would be a huge help for me.
I think I might go hiking. I don't have class for another five hours.
3 days ago